👀 Looking Back to Look Forward

I am currently contemplating big life decisions - moving away, and changing jobs.

I noticed feelings:

• Fear of falling behind on my career.
• Fear of not earning enough income and buying more assets.
• Fear of not having enough worldly life experiences.

There is an overwhelming sense of lack. Imprinted from a commercialised world.

Noticing this, I would like to reframe those thoughts into a sense, of equanimity, curiosity, and excitement.

Our sense of time is warped. I feel like I'm running out of time to reach the next goal, but mathematically I am 1/4 through my primary working years. And in this time I have reached the top income brackets and created freedom and flexibility in my work schedule. So why am I focused on fear, when this should bring a sense of pride and confidence? Moving forward my focus is not to work more to make more. Because more money, new things, and designer stuff doesn't really excite me. But to grow something, and create wealth more independent of my time motivates me. To focus on what I will learn from that journey and the impact I can make with it.

Key lessons in my 20s

1. Invest early, take risks - property, shares etc. Grateful to have 3 properties under my belt. Definitely creates stress and limitations in your life. However limitations force growth. There is always a way, and you will always adjust.
2. Fuck shame/embarrassment - so much shame has dictated how I presented myself to the world. Scared to be myself, face rejection, look being stupid, and make mistakes. One thing I learned is to visualise the "worst case scenario" and react with self-compassion; that fear then softens into pride. This will forever be a work in progress for me, but that's life.
3. Be careful of who you let into your life - as a people pleaser, people will take your time. Protect it. Your environment matters.
4. Seek challenge over excessive comfort - being too comfortable means being will be discontent and become unproductive. If I'm stressed over too much challenge, at least I will have progressed in some way.

What will my 30s and beyond bring?

In looking forward to my twilight what would I have regretted?

• Not dating more. And having sex when I'm younger lol.
• Not making that investment that sets me up for future success.
• Not growing and seeking comfort by being the "smartest" in the room.

In looking forward to my twilight what would I be proud of?

• Doing more things that take me outside my comfort zone like public speaking.
• Growing a business/investments that supports myself, family and friends.